Three hours

of typing my Belizean diary to share with you. Tears at one point. Nausea at one point. But, I realize I learned a ton in one week. There is a lot missing from my story. To fill it in, go do it yourself.

March 22, 2010. Uncategorized. Leave a comment.

– Day 8/Final destination:

home, to my real home in Okiehoma

– Reason: mission accomplished

– Final product: growth

– Next mission: to save the world

March 22, 2010. Uncategorized. Leave a comment.

Excerpts from my Belizean diary: Today,

Day 7- is new, is good. Here I am. Call on me God. Make me listen with all I have. I think I just realized what a part to life is. I want to keep growing with nature. I do not want to go back to my very American lifestyle. I w ant to save my family from. I want to save as many people as possible.

People, just listen. If not to me, to your Earth. Simplicity is the answer. Nature is the way. Everything is connected and in sync. But human are imperfect and therefore mess everything up. We are the cause of the problem and the result is our own destruction. It is horrible and yet completely, completely real. It is desperately sad and yet I am completely glad, that this passion has enveloped me. I understand that this is a responsibility bigger than me, but with God I can help, with God. I am so selfish and at the same time I am not at all. I need so much help. Last night, I was told that if in fifty years all insects were to parish, all life would disappear. Now for the hard part, if in fifty years all  humans were to parish, the world would flourish to its full potential. This is an awful conclusion, but its our own fault.

We all know we are sinners. But we are sinners beyond repair.  God can change us. A tool: living in nature, with nature, respecting nature. Get it right. Nature is necessary. It is our mom. Love it. I do not care if you think Avatar is fraudulent, or if it is a concept which has been thrown  at you too many times. Watch it. It shows my point which I solely believe in. Right now, I feel closer to Mother Nature than I’ve ever felt and I am loving it. I am part of Mother NAture. I have yet to figure out the connection between God, Mother Nature, and me. I know that God is a part of me. God made Mother Nature and he also created me. I love them both. I am confused. But what does that mean? I usually am confused. I am so in love. With the ocean. With islands that take five minutes to walk around the circumference. With life. With poverty. With simplicity. With my feet. With air. With sand. With the breeze. With everything. I hate only one thing: sin. Especially the sin that destroys. Especially the that destroys this Earth, this mother nature, this mankind, and my God. So I ask, Please Lord help me, help all of us to savor your Earth and save it.

March 22, 2010. Uncategorized. Leave a comment.

Excerpts from my Belizean diary: Drove across the country,

Day 6- rode across the sea. Saw beauty. Fell in love. Slept to to the ocean breeze in its rhythm all night long.

The guilt is unimaginable. It gives me nausea. I am a horrible person.

My family cried when I left them today. I changed their life. It was too early for me to cry. But I cried later, trust me.

March 22, 2010. Uncategorized. Leave a comment.

Excerpts from my Belizean diary: This is a whole,

Day 5-new

world. I thought Monkey Bay Sanctuary was primitive. I thought wrong. There is no running water here. No electricity. I take these both so much for granted in the States. A warm, long, quiet bath. That would be nice if there was

a)warm

b)long

c)quiet

d)bath

But here, baths are not what matter. What matters is family and religion and survival. Here, they go to church three times a week to services that last over two hours. Here, they share beds and sleep in hammocks, so that I may sleep in their only bed. Here, they look out for each other. Here, siblings hold hands and show love towards one another. Here, they eat all three meals at home as a family. Here, there is so much love. The children do not let go of their grip. All they want is for someone to know their name and show them some love. We have been here for three nights and still have tonight to go. But, I do not want to leave them. I do not want to go.

Our last day with the kids. Woke up to armadillo meat breakfast. I love being a vegetarian. Those innocent little creatures.

I love these children and I feel they love us. They hang on to us like no other and I am loving it. We have made such a difference. We rebuilt a set of swings. The kids were so impatient to try them out. And a little one named Esther, she was mine. She was my little monkey. She teared up when I had to say bye.

We went to the Blue Hole right before as a treat for working so hard.

Those sweet kids will never leave my mind.

We had a barbecue. All of our families came. It was a lot of fun.

I am so sad to leave.

March 22, 2010. Uncategorized. Leave a comment.

Excerpts from my Belizean diary: Woke up to a new concoction.

Day 4- At school, painted the library. I was as high as the farthest star in the sky. I went home for lunch to have some delicious fried bananas.

Story time: While at home, a little boy arrives on his bike with a machete and a full plastic shopping bag. My family tells me that it is “goats.” Ok, so we are having goat for dinner? No, “goats.” Ok? “Guts?” Yes, that’s gross. “Come look.” She pulls out a head. Yes, they were planning on eating the head. That begs the question, what animal was it? I gibnut, otherwise known as a royal rat. RAT. That little boy had just killed it with his machete.

Our group from my school went to a spring called the Blue Hole. It felt amazing. And this, this was our bath. I might say this is the best bath I have taken yet. And lucky us, I brought my organic, biodegradable shampoo. Life cannot get any better.

So, for dinner our group drove to Belmopan. I am thankful for this suggestion. I ate all of my french fries. They were so good. I don’t even care for french fries normally.

March 22, 2010. Uncategorized. Leave a comment.

Excerpts from my Belizean diary: Ate a breakfast of fried jack’s.

Day 3- I played with the kids. Got to know many of them. I ate a soup for lunch, the unknown concoction. With homemade tortillas, of course. Then, painted chalkboards. I, then, inhaled the best Snickers bar of my life. And I feel like I have been here for longer than a day.

I have been thinking about the tremendous effort we have put in, but when we leave, what is to come of these small changes? That is why we need everyone. If you ever have the chance to go on any mission trip, anywhere, do it. It is life changing. I believe I might experience culture shock upon my return to the States. So, to continue my efforts, I have promised myself to send packages to my dear friends in Belize. They deserve it.  The way they are living is incredible. The women must be incredibly tough. It makes me feel horrible, to say the least.

March 22, 2010. Uncategorized. Leave a comment.

Excerpts from my Belizean diary: So, off to the host families.

Day 2- We had planned on walking to to a nearby river, but we slept through that. Went to breakfast and ate pancakes and pineapple. Best hot cakes EVER. Spent a few frustrating minutes packing my back pack(which is considered a skill). Hiking. Then, lunch. and Here I am almost to my new family, driving the the forest and smelling the delicious forest air and I am loving it. I see poverty and it does not hurt so much as I thought. In this  poverty, I see happiness that I want.

Who knew hiking to Mayan ruins could be so much fun? It is actually kind  of mystical. Looking over the village, it is hard to imagine naked people doing things like sacrificing and carving into rock. It is surprisingly entertaining and the cool breeze is unbeatable after the trek. I am thinking how amazing it is, and how amazing this trip is. I have been here less than twenty-four hours.

We got to know our host family over a game of Uno. We had to teach them how to play first. We ate those r ice and beans that, down here, never get old.

March 22, 2010. Uncategorized. Leave a comment.

Excerpts from my Belizean diary: I stepped off the plane

Day 1- and walked over to an airport(if that’s what you’d call it). Our guide was waiting to take us to our first night’s accommodations, the Monkey Bay Sanctuary, EVERYONE needs to visit this place. It is located in the jungle. It exists upon itself. Everything is used for something. Rain water? Showers. Sunlight? Energy. Poop? Yes, feces. Cooking heat and later fertilizer. Trash? Fire. There is no heated water. The bedroom is about the size of a closet and four people are in this closet. It is not for everyone, but I could have stayed there for years. Our first evening’s agenda consisted of a night trip to the zoo, which was way more fun than I thought it would be. We  saw crazy animals people never see because they are nocturnal. I held a boa constrictor. I  now understand how they can strangle a human in seconds; they are so strong! The coolest thing about this zoo was that the animals were all either rescued or donated. Not to be mentioned, I took  a squat pee there. How many people get to do that at a zoo?! A resident of this zoo, the howler monkey, rightly earned its name. It sounds like a  dino, a big dino. So, it is now nine o’clock and I have seen very few vehicles other than the bus we are riding in. I learned that Sunday is very sacred to them and that most of the people were inside having Sunday dinner and enjoying family time. Before our trip to the zoo, we had actually participated in it by having the typical Belizean Sunday meal. It consists of rice, beans, potato salad, caramelized bananas, and bread pudding and I will add, it was delicious. By the end of the day, we slept in out bitty closet and slept well. The day was filled with laughter. Belize is filled with nice people and peace. And I am loving it.

March 22, 2010. Uncategorized. Leave a comment.

I figured it out.

This sudden fetish that has enveloped me the result of the beautiful weather.  After a long, cold winter,  the past two weeks have been beautiful. Sunny and warm, up to 70 degrees. It is wonderful. For anyone who has not yet read my past blogs, beautiful days are my favorite and so lately I’ve been feeling pretty good. I have been needing to add one more thing on that list: noticing and then enjoying the little things life gives me. It also makes for a great day. You should try it.

So, as you know, spring is around the corner. But, I have been thinking that spring came a little early, and I’m lovin’ it. To me, it is spring. It is spring! It is SPRING! I am sure you, whoever you are, is almost as ready for spring as I am. One thing I have not done yet is make a list of things I want to do this spring. So, here it goes:

_chalk, a lot

_get outside, a lot

_make the Easter meal for the whole family, by this I mean help make it

_sweat once a day

_stick to my vegetarianism

_take more photographs

to continue…

March 11, 2010. Uncategorized. Leave a comment.

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